Starting Again…
Once more… starting again haven´t felt so hard to
bear.
I thought that was going to be kind of easy after
all, so many struggle and obstacles I been trough get here where I am sitting,
my mother’s opinion in some way has some influence in my decisions. I have to
admit that I pay too much attention to others opinion, yeap… sucks some times
to know how wrong you have been after all that time, calling “friends” who doesn’t
deserve it, calling jerks to the one you should be calling FRIENDS, caring for
others who don’t give a penny to help…
How wrong I have being. There was the person I considered
her as my intimate friend, just to figure out she told all my life and my confessions
to others, my very deep thoughts were exposed at the world without a sign of
kindness.
Yes, you are right it was my fault to trust her
even when mom told me to be careful especially with her, I don’t care a penny
about her, she might start World War III at her own home but I am not going to
be there to collect her pieces.
Here comes the hard part, forgive her because she doesn’t
know what she wants in her life and she mess up everybody’s life.
Forgive and forget, how hard can that be to apply?
It has been said that we, humans beings don’t forget easily, less, we forgive
anyone offense, so easily.
Joseph, Jesus father on earth taught me one simple
lesson, because he was to marry Mary and acknowledge she was pregnant, his
first thought was to leave her secretly because he loved her so much to get her
in more trouble like a public sentence to death. Leaving her secretly before
witness was more kind, as a man maybe his ego was hurt and humiliated but the
love he had for her was stronger than his pride. Then the angel assure him to
not to fear because of Mary and her baby. (Mattew 1)
I some way Joseph must had a hard time deciding what
to do, so I am, and the first step to take is to forgive her (my friend)
What she have done wasn’t that big tsunami that hit
my life, but who I can trust or I will trust it won’t be so simple from now on.
Forgive, forget and go forward.
